Starting a New Chapter: Pregnant with Phoenix born Sept 26th 2012

I am Pregnant

On April 27th, Dennis and I had our last go around before we split and my luck, a month later, after being bed ridden with what I thought was the flu, a light bulb goes off and it hits me like a ton of bricks. HOLY SHIT - I AM PREGNANT! Using that date as my conception date, the little guy will make his grand entrance on January 18th. Oddly enough, I have about 6 friends and 4 family members that share the birthday of January 17th....not to mention I was born on the 4th.

They say that when you spend most of your pregnancy in the bathroom bent over a toilet (getting sick) your having a girl. How exciting!! I already have 2 boys that my older sister has custody of because I wasn't able to care for them in the way they should have been (treated like little kings). Jaxon and Phoenix are so very lucky to be with my sister and her husband. Even though I lost so much by having them, the world gained 2 amazing little men. I have no regrets at this point.

But now, I have been given a chance, such a beautiful opportunity to get the hell out of the black hole I have fallen into and the ability to have a beautiful family once again.

Im going home to Alaska. I will be with people that love me again. I will be able to take the time I need to heal my wounds rather then just numbing them. By doing that, I will be paving my road to Motherhood and a life filled with blessings I never thought I deserved.

I have never been so excited to do anything.

Thank You - My wonderful and charming father, my step-mother, who has always been more then a mother to me but my friend and my teacher. I adore both of you and feel as though you are giving me the chance to live again.

Plus, I cant forget John, sorry but you will always be Johnny to me. Thank you so very much for your forgiveness but most of all your friendship and understanding. Even after all this time, just the thought of you gives me butterflies deep in my tummy. I am so very excited that you will be able to be apart of my life at this time. I love you dork. I hope you will always let me be that girl from second period!

Starting a New Chapter

Saturday, August 10, 2013

Pregnant with Phoenix born Sept 26th 2012

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